Long Time, No Post

It's been quite a while since I've had time to post! I've been so busy with teaching, working part time, giving art lessons and grad school that I haven't had much time to breathe. I have, however, been keeping up with my training. My trainer is awesome and she has really helped me stay accountable and motivated. I found out that she will be leaving me in 3 weeks for Florida...permanently! While my wallet will be happy, I will have to find a way to keep up with my workouts and be accountable to myself. I believe that if I write down when I will work out in my planner, like I have with my training sessions, I can do it! I am so happy that school is ending soon for the summer...well, for 2 months anyway. I will be taking classes, but at least I will generally have my days free to work out and eat healthy! I've lost 1 inch off of my abdomen and 1 inch off of my thighs since starting. According to my scale, I have lost about 3 pounds. I'm hoping to get the official numbers from Alexa this coming week! While these are small numbers, I'm happy they're going down and not up! I know I can do this and having someone show me new things to do and the proper way in which to perform the exercises has really helped.

I am still struggling mentally with feeling happy, keeping up my self esteem and coping with stress. That part, I don't think, can be solved with training/exercise alone. This is why I've decided to see a psychiatrist. I've toyed with the idea for some time. I have been to counselors before, but I don't think I've ever really been honest with myself about my feelings. I recently read the book, "An Unquiet Mind." It was eye-opening and I could really relate to a lot of the things the author experienced. While I appreciate my general physician, I don't think that she can help me in the same way that a mental health professional can. Mental health is an issue that is close to my heart as many people in my family, myself included, have struggled with it for a long time. It's not easy to admit that your brain doesn't function the way "normal" people do; but just like with any problem, admitting that you have one is half the battle. I'm looking forward to what this step will bring and hope that by continuing to work out and talking with someone, I will keep my whole self well. I hope all of you are doing well with your journey, whatever it looks like. I'd love to hear from you guys too. In the words of a good friend, "Keep smiling, keep shining."

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