A little good, a little frustrating
Well, our last day of school for the 2012-2013 school year was yesterday. I am somewhat relieved to be done with this year, but am also feeling a little bummed that I'm still working and taking classes this summer. I know I will have more time to myself and more time to concentrate on my school work, so that's good I suppose. Summers were so much more fun when my friends were also off or around!
Speaking of friends, according to my Dr, I need to do more social things to improve my mood. So...any of you guys who also find yourself with some "free time," feel free to hit me up. The hard thing is trying to be social without spending money. Any of you who would like to work out together or take a hike together or do anything other than eat or drink at a restaurant, let's make a date! I definitely do think that I will miss the social aspect of working out with my trainer. It's nice to have someone to motivate you and chat with you while you're working out. It makes the hour go by a lot quicker. Since I won't have her any longer, I'd love to have a partner besides my iPod or my pup.
Aside from trying to be social, apparently I still need to lose weight for my health as well. I've never thought of myself as "unhealthy," but I went to talk about my hiatal hernia this morning and carrying too much weight apparently exacerbates your hernia/acid reflux issues. That wasn't such happy news to hear. It's not fun to feel like you're fat; however, I'm trying to be positive and remind myself that at least I'm working on it. I've thought about seeing a nutritionist just to try to get my eating habits back on track, but again, the money is an issue. My goal is to try to shop more at the produce stands and farmer's markets this summer and avoid the grocery store. Have any of you been to a nutritionist? Any thoughts, good or bad?
In addition to all of these things, I'm working on trying to love myself more. I feel like the last few weeks, I have been more self-loathing than self-loving. I'm really trying to change that. I've decided that getting back on anti-depressants is probably my best bet for right now since working out alone isn't helping me change my mindset as much as I'd hoped. When you've struggled with depression, you know it's a constant battle to try to make yourself feel normal and try to get through daily life without hating yourself. It might sound weird or whiny to you, but until you've lived with it, you really wouldn't understand. I hope that if any of you are still dealing with feelings of depression that you do what is best for you and remember to love yourself more. We shouldn't beat ourselves up because we need a little help sometimes.
I'm going to end with a positive note: I have lost about 6.5lbs since I started this journey and I did lose 4 inches off of my middle. Those things, I am proud of, but I'm hoping to lost at least 15 more lbs before November. We shall see how it goes.
Speaking of friends, according to my Dr, I need to do more social things to improve my mood. So...any of you guys who also find yourself with some "free time," feel free to hit me up. The hard thing is trying to be social without spending money. Any of you who would like to work out together or take a hike together or do anything other than eat or drink at a restaurant, let's make a date! I definitely do think that I will miss the social aspect of working out with my trainer. It's nice to have someone to motivate you and chat with you while you're working out. It makes the hour go by a lot quicker. Since I won't have her any longer, I'd love to have a partner besides my iPod or my pup.
Aside from trying to be social, apparently I still need to lose weight for my health as well. I've never thought of myself as "unhealthy," but I went to talk about my hiatal hernia this morning and carrying too much weight apparently exacerbates your hernia/acid reflux issues. That wasn't such happy news to hear. It's not fun to feel like you're fat; however, I'm trying to be positive and remind myself that at least I'm working on it. I've thought about seeing a nutritionist just to try to get my eating habits back on track, but again, the money is an issue. My goal is to try to shop more at the produce stands and farmer's markets this summer and avoid the grocery store. Have any of you been to a nutritionist? Any thoughts, good or bad?
In addition to all of these things, I'm working on trying to love myself more. I feel like the last few weeks, I have been more self-loathing than self-loving. I'm really trying to change that. I've decided that getting back on anti-depressants is probably my best bet for right now since working out alone isn't helping me change my mindset as much as I'd hoped. When you've struggled with depression, you know it's a constant battle to try to make yourself feel normal and try to get through daily life without hating yourself. It might sound weird or whiny to you, but until you've lived with it, you really wouldn't understand. I hope that if any of you are still dealing with feelings of depression that you do what is best for you and remember to love yourself more. We shouldn't beat ourselves up because we need a little help sometimes.
I'm going to end with a positive note: I have lost about 6.5lbs since I started this journey and I did lose 4 inches off of my middle. Those things, I am proud of, but I'm hoping to lost at least 15 more lbs before November. We shall see how it goes.
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