Once in a Lifetime...

I have the Talking Heads stuck in my head this morning. Do you ever wake up and think, Is this real life? Am I really 30 and dealing with all of this? Today is one of those days...I always knew life was going to be challenging, but this past year has been one of the most challenging of all. It is second only to the year that I got my heart broken, my Mom had a heart attack and our family dog had to be put to sleep. 2008 kind of sucked as well. I'm glad we only have two months left of 2013. I am ready for some new beginnings. I always thought by now that I would have a husband and a family of my own, but life has really thrown me some curve balls. It's true that even the best laid plans don't work out the way that you want them to. I am trying so hard to be strong and give things up to God, but that is a difficult thing to do as well. I pray constantly throughout the day and I hope that God is listening. I know that no matter how much I want things to work out, he has a plan and I just have to accept that. I'm just struggling right now. I hope that if any of you are struggling, you are praying about it too. I just figured I would share my thoughts and maybe it will help someone else too...

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