Postponements and Perspective

As most of you probably know by now, Ben is going through some pretty serious health issues. As a result of this, we have decided to postpone our wedding so that he can take some time to heal and we can get married when things slow down a bit.

This has all given me a lot of perspective. I have started truly prioritizing. I realized that over the past few years I have gotten so caught up in work and making money and figuring out how to lose weight that I have neglected the things that are truly important. As you've seen me discuss before, mental and emotional health are something that I care deeply about. I realized that I have been neglecting my own mental and emotional health lately. I think I am finally seeing clearly now that I need to spend more time focusing on my family, my blessings, my friends and the things that I enjoy in life rather than trying to change the imperfections. I am starting to understand that I need to let go of some of the control I've tried to have and just let things unfold as they may. (This has never been one of my strong suits.) Although life is not going how I had planned, I'm beginning to realize that this journey has been mapped out for a reason and I need to accept that I can't make things perfect and I shouldn't have to. The silver lining in all of this is that I have someone that I love and care about more deeply than I ever have and I have so much to look forward to with him. :-)

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