Mind, Body and Soul Manifestations

As this is the season of Thanks, I am trying incredibly hard to focus on all of the blessings that I have in my life right now. It's been a tough week. I was fortunate enough to be able to take my Mom with me to NC last weekend for my grandparent-in-law's 60th wedding anniversary party. My husband got stuck working, so she filled in for him that way I didn't have to go alone. I am so thankful that she did. It was a beautiful party and it was so nice to spend time with my in-laws. They really are fabulous. I feel like I belong which is always nice. The only tough thing was that they had a christening for their first great-grandchild at the party. It was beautiful, but very tough for me. Initially, I didn't think I would be bothered...I mean, I am happy that Ben's cousin has been able to expand his family, I had just hoped that Ben and I would have our first child this year too. It hit me a lot harder than I thought. I held it together, but I didn't want to get cl...

I had been lying in bed for an hour or so just staring at the red light on my TV. I have a lot of thoughts rolling around in my brain and I felt like I needed to write some of them down. I feel so troubled by everything that has occurred in our world over the past few weeks/months. I hate that the new topic of conversation among my students is a threat from a terrorist group on Washington D.C. I have been trying to assure them that our world is sort of like Men In Black right now. "There is always going to be some Arquillian Battle Cruiser, or Corillian Death Ray, or an intergalactic plague that's about to wipe out all life on this miserable little planet, and the only way these people can get on with their happy lives is that they do not know about it!" (Agent K) I want them to be able to live their lives without worrying about those threats. That quote has resonated with me...as cheesy as it may sound. As soon as we hear news that someone has officially threatened our...

I am feeling much more like myself (I think I can say that-it's like Sarah 2.0) this week.  I met with my Dr. a week and a half ago and in the midst of balling my eyes out and trying to convey to her how I was feeling, she calmly told me that it is not my fault that I'm feeling so overwhelmed and stressed. Those of us who truly suffer from anxiety and depression cannot prevent those feelings rationally on our own. There is a chemical imbalance and I shouldn't feel bad about it. (Thank God for her!) We decided that my best course of action (regardless of trying to get pregnant) was to get back on some medicine. I can already feel a difference in my stress and energy levels. I hate admitting that I'm not strong enough to get through life without a bit of help from a pill, but it's the truth...and if it makes me feel more motivated and less out of control then I am going to have to accept it. The baby business is still in the back of my mind, but I don't feel lik...