Weight ain't nothin' but a number...

I think I have to shift my thinking a little this week. I had a bit of meltdown on Saturday when after a week of making good choices, not splurging and trying really hard to work out, etc., I did not lose a single pound. I then had date night with Ben and ate entirely too many calories...and had a few too many blackberry martinis. I got back on track yesterday and today though. I'm watching The Biggest Loser and after seeing some of the contestants melt down about how awful they feel about themselves and their lives, I'm trying to give myself some more perspective. This journey is not about a number. It's not about the size of my pants or the number on the scale, it's more about being healthy. I do not want to look in the mirror 20 years from now and say "Why did you let yourself go?" I want to be able to have kids, be a good role model AND have a healthy self-esteem. I don't want to blow my whole week just because I'm angry that the scale didn't budge. I have to reset my brain and remember that this is a marathon, not a sprint. It's going to take a while to get where I want to be and I can't keep taking one step forward and two steps back. I'm sticking with my working out during commercials/TV tonight and planning out my calories so I don't get too crazy. The next step might be trying morning workouts again. I have got to find some time in my schedule somewhere to get these workouts in. Again, one step at a time. This week, I'm going to keep focusing on incorporating at least one fruit and one vegetable into each meal I'm eating and we'll go from there. :-)

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  1. Megan DarrJanuary 16, 2013 at 8:13 PM

    I like your perspective and determination in this post! You're doing great Sarah even the times you do not think you are, you can and will get back on track again and again...and even again until it sticks at least 85% of the time. :-) Keep your head up

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