I'm Gonna Get Through This

This song has been on repeat in my head for the past few days. It's not exactly the same context, but I think the message is good. For those of you who didn't read my last blog, I am dealing with a blighted ovum and a miscarriage. You can read the previous post for more info. I had my appointment today to decide what my next steps were going to be.

The appointment was tough because I had to wait about an hour to see the Dr. because he was delivering a baby and I sat in the waiting room watching all of these ladies with growing bellies pass through. It was hard, but I feel like God has answered my prayers for acceptance. The serenity prayer has been constantly going through my mind since last Wednesday. Although the past few days have been difficult, I have felt so overwhelmed, humbled, and comforted by all of the responses I got after posting my initial blog about everything. To those of you who shared your personal stories with me about miscarrying, still birth, and the other awful things that no one wants to talk about; I admire you so much. I am truly grateful to you for reaching out to me and telling me how you dealt with it. I have opted to have a D&C to remove the tissue that is still growing and I feel much more confident in my decision after reading about and listening to your stories. I think it is amazing that so many of you overcame that hurdle and went on to have children. It takes an immense amount of courage to persevere and find the strength to move on and try again. It's not easy, but I know that women are made of strong stuff.

I am thankful that when I prayed, God helped me find peace in sharing my story. I gained so much strength from all of you who shared your stories with me and I hope that my blog helped you in some small way too. My procedure is scheduled for this Friday, March 20th and I know it will be a hard day, but I am ready to end this chapter of the story so that Ben and I can continue writing our next portion. Thank you for your prayers, messages, support, and love. I am so blessed to have such amazing friends and family. I can never express how much you all truly mean to me and I am actually very grateful to social media because I know that I couldn't have reached out to all of you without it. You are in my thoughts and prayers too and I know that we can all get through this together. Thanks again for taking the time out of your busy day to read this. Hugs.