The 5 Year Engagement

Admittedly, this was probably not the smartest choice of a movie for me to watch on a Saturday night alone, but alas, I did...and here we are. It's a great movie and in a way, it gives me hope. While I'm not sure what the future holds for Ben and I, I am sure that I can't just tell my heart to shut up. I have had other relationships that I thought would result in marriage, but this one truly seemed like it was it. It still does. I pray every day and night that God will help guide me in the direction that I'm supposed to go. It is just incredibly hard to have patience. I know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be and I'm trying to keep the faith that I will find happiness sooner rather than later. I know several ladies that I would consider good friends who did not find their soul mate until they were well into their 40's. If that is how long it takes to find happiness, then I will just have to wait. Anyway, there was only so much portfolio editing and paper-writing I could take without my thoughts getting the best of me. Back to work!

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